allow me to introduce you to my newest friend

<3 href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext">

philips audio jukebox hdd100/17...holds up to 3500 songs, can play for 10 hours straight...

"God is...faithful, forgiving, and friendly"

well this youth trip was rather eventful...to say the least. there was lots of talking,listening, singing, yelling, fighting,rule breaking and tardiness. ha. it almost didn't feel like a "youth trip" though because another larger local youth group was there and i go to skool w/most of them; that was a good thing because i dont get along w/alot of our youth group so there was other ppl to talk to but i also didn't like it because i went up there trying to get away from the moody shit and it followed me through a few of those ppl. despite the opinions of many other ppl at my church, my favorite speaker was the last guy...he was hilarious...and i liked his whole view on frienship even though he left out the part about needing them, lol. but yea, i got big lessons in patience and forgiveness and learned a bit about true friends. o yea, hey michael it was fun hangin out w/ya minus the part where you were an asshole, jk...thanks for being there for me!

25 hours and counting

::nausea::headache::tears::...i have the urge to lick some jumper cables or something. the past 2 days have been "bittersweet" i guess, being out of moody helped me get my mind off of things a little...too bad evey time i remembered, it hit me very hard. its all i can do right now not to pick up the phone, but i cant, it'll only make things worse...michael-your advice better be true. i finally got the mp3 player to work...turns out my dads computer doesn't have a sound card and that was fudging it up...i wasted 2 hours on the phone with 2 different foreign customer service guys with the volume on their phone entirely too low only to find out i wasn't using the right computer...it worked on the first try here. w/in the past 3 hours i've put 222 songs by 35 artists on it, w00t! i saw Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events tonight...it was really good even though i'm not a big jim carrey fan. there was a quote that really struck me in it so i'm going to close with that. o yea, i wont be posting for a few days, goin on a youth retreat to gatlinburg...cant decide if its a good or bad thing. i need to get away to cope with things, but at the same time i want to just stay here and sleep and watch movies.anyways....talk to ya'll later...

Violet Baudelaire: At times the world may seem like an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe us when we say that there is much more good in it than bad... and what may seem like a series of unfortunate events might, in fact, be the first steps of a journey.

thank you for holding, we appologize for the delay

still dont feel like explaining whats going on...it does seem though that horrible "luck"(or whatever you want to call it) is following me relentlessly with a vengeance. my aunt and uncle's lexus caught on fire just after they left the house yesterday(that was pretty crazy, its a good thing they weren't in it and they hadn't already left for the lake house). still finding it hard to sleep, that deep nausea feeling thats been with me since that night is fading(well for the moment). i woke up to the sound of grinding metal/breaking glass/screaming, 2 cars wrecked right outside my window at about 7:30 this morning...what a pleasant way to start the day off. if that wasn't depressing enough, i went back to sleep and had a dream about him; thus waking up only feeling worse. i've been on hold for atleast the last 30 minutes waiting for a philips service representative to become available to assist me...i got this really awesome mp3 player yesterday, but when i put it together and loaded the songs on it and hit "play" it froze up; so i reset went through all the menus, found another song, hit "play", and once again it froze...so i called to fix it and here i am on hold...waiting...always waiting...

how depressing is this? the most exciting/joyful/happy holiday of the year has brought me more pain than i could ever imagine was possible. this definitely tops it guys...last night was horrible but right now it seems to just be going downhill...i might explain some when i can fully compose myself, right now i'm running on 3 hours of sleep and am very upset...pray for me please

in all honesty...today is now ranked in my book as the worst day of my life so far...i cant go into details...7 minutes till tomorrow and the hope that comes with a new day...

Spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen,And I said,Did you know I missed you?

nothing extremely special happened today(but hey-what else is new, right?)...aawwee-i was in target and amongst all the mental(i mean it w/the most seriousness...i almost got smashed between 2 shopping carts because people are idiots) christmas shoppers i saw this (fairly attractive)guy(app. my age) walking around with (what i assume to be) his little brother(about 3 yrs old), i didn't really get a good look at them but i did notice it was cute ya know(aawwee brothers being nice to eachother, lol)...and a few minutes later i was lookin at the movies and they came up and were standing by me and went to walk around me and the little boy was like "excuse me" and i looked down and he was grinning so big! it was so adorable!(yes that was definitely a "had to have been there" story i just told, first one in years...what am i turning into) anyways, i decided that if i were to ever have a kid(which i dont plan to...that will more than likely change later), i want him to look just like that little boy...lol...ok i'll stop the nonsense now

6 DAYS AND COUNTING

i'm going to punch you in the ovary.......................right in the babymaker

HECK YES!NAPOLEON DYNAMITE COMES OUT ON VIDEO TODAY!!!

Memorable Quotes from
Napoleon Dynamite (2004)

Kid on Bus: What are you gonna do today, Napoleon?
Napoleon Dynamite: Whatever I feel like I wanna do, gosh!

---

Napoleon Dynamite: Grandma just called and said you're supposed to go home.
Uncle Rico: She didn't tell me anything.
Napoleon Dynamite: Too bad, she said she doesn't want you here when she gets back because you've been ruining everybody's lives and eating all our steak.
Uncle Rico: I'm not goin' anywhere, Napoleon.
Napoleon Dynamite: Get off my property!
Uncle Rico: It's a free country. I can do whatever I want.
Napoleon Dynamite: Get off my property or I'll call the cops on you.
Uncle Rico: Well then do it! Go on!
Napoleon Dynamite: Maybe I will, GOSH!

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Napoleon Dynamite: Stay home and eat all the freakin' chips, Kip.
Kip: Napoleon, don't be jealous that I've been chatting online with babes all day. Besides, we both know that I'm training to be a cage fighter.
Napoleon Dynamite: Since when, Kip? You have the worst reflexes of all time.
Kip: Try and hit me, Napoleon.
Napoleon Dynamite: What?
Kip: I said come down here and see what happens if you try and hit me.

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Uncle Rico: So what do you think?
Kip: It's pretty cool, I guess.
Uncle Rico: Ohhhh, man I wish I could go back in time. I'd take state.
Napoleon Dynamite: This is pretty much the worst video ever made.
Kip: Napoleon, like anyone can even know that.
Uncle Rico: You know what, Napoleon? You can leave.
Napoleon Dynamite: You guys are retarded!

---

Rex: At Rex Kwan Do, we use the buddy system. No more flying solo. You need somebody watching your back at all times. Second off, you're gonna learn to discipline your image. You think I got where I am today because I dressed like Peter Pan over here?
[points to Napoleon]
Rex: Take a look at what I'm wearing, people. You think anybody wants a roundhouse kick to the face while I'm wearing these bad boys? Forget about it. Last off, my students will learn about self respect. You think anybody thinks I'm a failure because I go home to Starla at night? Forget about it!

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Don: Hey, Napoleon. What did you do last summer again?
Napoleon Dynamite: I told you! I spent it with my uncle in Alaska hunting wolverines!
Don: Did you shoot any?
Napoleon Dynamite: Yes, like 50 of 'em! They kept trying to attack my cousins, what the heck would you do in a situation like that?
Don: What kind of gun did you use?
Napoleon Dynamite: A freakin' 12-gauge, what do you think?

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Deb: And here we have some boondoggle key chains. A must-have for this season's fashion.
Napoleon Dynamite: I already made like infinity of those at scout camp.

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Napoleon Dynamite: You know, there's like a butt-load of gangs at this school. This one gang kept wanting me to join because I'm pretty good with a bowstaff.

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Napoleon Dynamite: Well, I have all your equipment in my locker. You should probably come get it cause I can't fit my nunchucks in there anymore.

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Napoleon Dynamite: I see you're drinking 1% milk. Is that because you think you're fat? Because you're not. You could probably be drinking whole milk.

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Napoleon Dynamite: Do the chickens have large talons?
Farmer: Do they have what?
Napoleon Dynamite: Large talons.
Farmer: I don't understand a word you just said.

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Pedro: Do you think people will vote for me?
Napoleon Dynamite: Heck yes! I'd vote for you.
Pedro: Like what are my skills?
Napoleon Dynamite: Well, you have a sweet bike. And you're really good at hooking up with chicks. Plus you're like the only guy at school who has a mustache.

---

Trisha: Thanks for the beautiful drawing. It's hanging in my room right now.
Napoleon Dynamite: Really? It took me like three hours to finish the shading on your upper lip. It's probably the best drawing I've ever done.

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Rex: I'm Rex, founder of the Rex Kwan Do self-defense system! After one week with me in my dojo, you'll be prepared to defend yourself with the strength of a grizzly, the reflexes of a puma, and the wisdom of a man.

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Napoleon Dynamite: How long did it take you to grow that moustache?
Pedro: A couple of days.

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Napoleon Dynamite: Pedro, how do you feel about that one?
Pedro: It looks nice.
Napoleon Dynamite: Yeah, it looks pretty sweet. It looks awesome. It's incredible.

---

Uncle Rico: So how are things going with you and your girlfriend?
Kip: Well, I think it's getting pretty serious. We chat online for like two hours a day so yeah, you could say it's getting pretty serious.

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Napoleon Dynamite: Girls only want boyfriends who have great skills. You know, like nunchuck skills, bowhunting skills, computer hacking skills...

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Grandma: How was school?
Napoleon Dynamite: The worst day of my life, what do you think?

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Napoleon Dynamite: What kind of bike do you have?
Pedro: It's a sledgehammer.
Napoleon Dynamite: Dang!... You ever take it off any sweet jumps?
Napoleon Dynamite: [Cut to Pedro jumping] You got like three feet of air that time.

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Deb: What are you drawing?
Napoleon Dynamite: A liger.
Deb: What's a liger?
Napoleon Dynamite: It's pretty much my favorite animal. It's like a lion and a tiger mixed... bred for its skills in magic.

---

Napoleon Dynamite: Tina, you fat lard, come get some DINNER!... Tina, eat. Food. Eat the FOOD!

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Napoleon Dynamite: Tina, come get some ham.

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Deb: Are they still letting you run for president?
Pedro: Yes. I don't understand... they say you're not allowed to have pinatas that look like real people, but in Mexico, we do it all the time.

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Napoleon Dynamite: Pedro offers you his protection.

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Napoleon Dynamite: I caught you a delicious bass.

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Pedro: If I win, you can be my secretary or something.
Napoleon Dynamite: Sweet!

---

Deb: I'm trying to raise money to go to college.
Kip: [from the background] Your mom goes to college.

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Uncle Rico: How much you wanna make a bet I can throw a football over them mountains?... Yeah... Coach woulda put me in fourth quarter, we would've been state champions. No doubt. No doubt in my mind.

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Napoleon Dynamite: [drinks glass of milk] The defect in this one is bleach.
FFA Judge No. 1: That's right.
Napoleon Dynamite: Yessssssssss.
Napoleon Dynamite: [drinks second glass of milk] This one tastes like the cow got into an onion patch.
FFA Judge No. 2: Correct.
Napoleon Dynamite: Yessssssssss.

---

Deb: [setting up Uncle Rico for a glamor shot] This is looking really good.
Kip: You can say that again.

---

[Deb is making a glamour shot of Uncle Rico]
Deb: Okay, turn you head on more of a slant...
[all three turn their heads in a slant]
Deb: Now, make a fist. Slowly ease it up underneath your chin.
[All three slowly ease up fists under their chins]
Deb: This is looking really good.
Kip: You can say that again.
[Uncle Rico acknowledges]
Deb: Kay, hold still right there. Now, just imagine you're weightless, in the middle of the ocean, surrounded by tiny little seahorses.
[Uncle Rico pictures it and give a gleaming look at the camera]
Deb: [takes the picture] That was one that I think is gonna come out really nice.
Uncle Rico: Ah, how you did it... wow... well I felt really relaxed. Thanks Deb.
[Uncle Rico puts his fist down, then swats a fly]
Uncle Rico: You're up Kip.
Kip: Is there some kind of vest that I can wear?
[makes gesture of putting on a vest]

---

Napoleon Dynamite: I like your sleeves. They're real big.
Deb: Thank you. I made them myself.
Napoleon Dynamite: So you and Pedro getting really serious now?

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Napoleon Dynamite: Who are you gonna ask to the dance?
Pedro: That girl right there.
Napoleon Dynamite: Summer Wheatly? How the heck are you gonna do that?
Pedro: Build her a cake or something.

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Nathan: Napoleon, give me some of your tots.
Napoleon Dynamite: No, go find your own.
Nathan: Come on, give me some of your tots.
Napoleon Dynamite: No, I'm freakin' starving! I didn't get to eat anything today.
Nathan: [kicks the tots]
Napoleon Dynamite: Ugh! Gross! Freakin' idiot!

---

Kip: I'm just really trying to raise a few bucks now so I can bring her out for a few days.
Uncle Rico: Yeah, well what does she look like?
Kip: She's uh... she's got sandy blonde hair. She's uh... pretty good looking face, but I'm just getting really... just kinda TO'd because... I mean she hasn't even sent me a full body shot yet.

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Napoleon Dynamite: Hey can I use your guys's phone for a sec?
Secretary No. 1: Is there anything wrong?
Napoleon Dynamite: I don't feel very good.
[takes telephone and dials number]
Kip: [making nachos on the other line] Hi.
Napoleon Dynamite: Is grandma there?
Kip: No, she's getting her hair done.
Napoleon Dynamite: Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Kip: What do you need?
Napoleon Dynamite: Can you just go get her for me?
Kip: I'm really busy right now.
Napoleon Dynamite: Just tell her to come get me.
Kip: Why?
Napoleon Dynamite: Cause I don't feel good!
Kip: Well, have you talked to the school nurse?
Napoleon Dynamite: No, she doesn't know anything. Will you just come get me?
Kip: No.
Napoleon Dynamite: Well, will you do me a favor then? Can you bring me my chapstick?
Kip: No, Napoleon.
Napoleon Dynamite: But my lips hurt real bad!
Kip: Just borrow some from the school nurse. I know she has like five sticks in her drawer.
Napoleon Dynamite: I'm not gonna use hers, you sicko!
Kip: See ya.
Napoleon Dynamite: Ugh! Idiot!

---

Napoleon Dynamite: Well, what is there to eat?
Grandma: Knock it off Napoleon, just make yourself a dang quesa-dilluh!

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Deb: It's Deb. And I'm calling to let you know that I think you're a shallow friend.
Napoleon Dynamite: What the heck are you even talking about?

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Napoleon Dynamite: Deb just called me. She pretty much hates me by now.
Pedro: Why?
Napoleon Dynamite: Because my uncle Rico's an IDIOT.
Pedro: Do you have anything to give to her?
Napoleon Dynamite: No. Not unless she likes fish.

---

Pedro: Who was that?
Napoleon Dynamite: Trisha.
Pedro: Who's she?
Napoleon Dynamite: My woman I'm taking to the dance.
Pedro: Did you draw her a picture?
Napoleon Dynamite: Heck yes I did.

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Napoleon Dynamite: My old girlfriend from Oklahoma was gonna fly out for the dance but she couldn't cause she's doing some modeling right now.
Pedro: Is she hot?
Napoleon Dynamite: See for yourself.
[hands him Deb's glamor shot sample]
Pedro: Wow.
Napoleon Dynamite: Yeah, I took her to the mall to get some glamor shots for her birthday one year.
Pedro: I like her bangs.
Napoleon Dynamite: Yeah, me too.

---

Don: Vote for Summer.
Napoleon Dynamite: Yeah, right, I'm not voting for her.
Don: Then who you gonna vote for?
Napoleon Dynamite: I'm voting for Pedro Sanchez, who do you think?
[Don scoffs and walks away]
Napoleon Dynamite: Hey, Don. Can I have one of those buttons?
[Don hands Napoleon a "Vote 4 Summer" button]
Napoleon Dynamite: [Napoleon tosses it across the hall, stares at Don, and runs away]

---

Napoleon Dynamite: You guys having a killer time?

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[Kip and Lafawnduh's wedding; Kip singing]
Kip: Yes, I love technology But not as much as you, you see But I still love technology, Always and forever. Always and forever.

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[Kip is singing to Lafawnduh after they are pronounced husband and wife]
Kip: Why do you love me? Why do you need me? Always and forever... We met in a chatroom, now our love can fully bloom... Sure the world wide web is great, but you, you make my salivate... I love technology, but not as much as you, you see... But I STILL love technology... Always and forever. Our love is like a flock of doves, flying up to heaven above... always and forever, always and forever... Why do you need me? Why do you love me? Always and forever...

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Napoleon Dynamite: What are you doing here, Uncle Rico?
Uncle Rico: Grandma took a little spill at the sand dunes today. Broke her coccyx.

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Uncle Rico: Kip, I reckon... you know a lot about... cyberspace? You ever come across anything... like time travel?
Kip: Easy, I've already looked into it for myself.
Uncle Rico: Right on... right on.

---

[Napoleon Dynamite straps himself into the time machine]
Kip: So are you ready?
Napoleon Dynamite: Yeah, hold on... I forgot to put in the crystals.

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Uncle Rico: Just a little east of the cemetery is a good little area, but don't go down here cause they don't have any money.
Kip: So how long are we talking about working?
Uncle Rico: What are you already losing your steam?
Kip: No, I just... I have a chat room meeting at 4. I gotta be back here by then.
Uncle Rico: Alright, you just start a little earlier, that's all. Or else work afterwards. How long is the chat room?
Kip: Jeez, sometimes up to 3-4 hours maybe... Maybe not.
Uncle Rico: You pay the bills for that? Does that cost money every time you're on, like for minutes on the phone?
Kip: Yeah, grandma's still paying per minute. She gets kinda pissed at me sometimes cause I'm on there so long.
Uncle Rico: I bet she does. I'll tell you something, I'd be throwing you out the window.

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Kip: So when's grandma coming back?
Uncle Rico: I don't know. Not sure.
Napoleon Dynamite: You don't have to stay here with us, we're not babies.
Uncle Rico: Ha ha! Talk to your antie Carolyn.
Napoleon Dynamite: Kip is like 32 years old.
Kip: I don't mind if you stay.

---

Teacher: Your current event, Napoleon.
Napoleon Dynamite: Last week, Japanese scientists explaced... placed explosive detonators at the bottom of Lake Lochness to blow Nessy out of the water. Sir Godfrey of the Nessy Alliance summoned the help of Scotland's local wizards to cast a protective spell over the lake and its local residents and all those who seek for the peaceful existence of our underwater ally.

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Kip: [typing a poem on his computer] Your sandy hair floats in the air... To me it's like a lullaby... I'm just flying by... Oh so high... like a kite...

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Uncle Rico: Napoleon, you know we can't afford the fun pack. What, do you think money grows on trees in this family? Take it back! And get some pampers for you and your brother while you're at it.

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[Napoleon rides up to Kip and LaFawnduh's wedding on a horse]
Napoleon Dynamite: Sorry I'm late. I just got done taming a wild honeymoon stallion for you guys.

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Napoleon Dynamite: [referring to Pedro's bike] It's got shocks... pegs... lucky!

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Napoleon Dynamite: [to Pedro] Just follow your heart. That's what I do.

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Napoleon Dynamite: [while hitch-hiking] Are you guys like Rico's cousins with the sweet hook-up?

Luke 11:9-13

9 Accordingly I say to you, Keep on asking, and it will be given you; keep on seeking, and you will find; keep on knocking, and it will be opened to you. 10 For everyone asking receives, and everyone seeking finds, and to everyone knocking it will be opened. 11 Indeed, which father is there among you who, if his son asks for a fish, will perhaps hand him a serpent instead of a fish? 12 Or if he also asks for an egg, will hand him a scorpion? 13 Therefore, if you, although being wicked, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more so will the Father in heaven give holy spirit to those asking him!”

Hold on, hold on to yourself, for this is gonna hurt like hell.

i dont really know what to say... but i need someone to talk to and no one is online/answering their phone so here i am. wow, where to begin...you know your life is spinning out of control when your best friend isn't speaking to you, your boyfriend is breaking up with you, and one of the ppl your supposed to dislike most(vice versa) speaks to you for no apparent reason down at the wally world. how did i let things get so f'd up? how am i supposed to fix this mess? those 2 questions have been in my head all day and i have concluded that- I DON'T EFFIN KNOW...

rant

"you put yourself in stupid places

yes I think you know it's true

situations where it's easy to look down on you

I think you like to be the victim

i think you like to be in pain

i think you make yourself the victim

almost every single day



you do what you do

you say what you say

you try to be everything to everyone

you know all the right people

you play all the right games

you always try to be

everything to everyone



spin around and fall down

do it again

you stumble and you fall

yeah why won't you ever learn

spin around and fall down

do it again

you stumble and you fall

i wonder if you will ever learn



why won't you ever learn"



it irritates me tremendously when people get mad at me for something that i cannot control...

that something itself drives me insane...

once again i have failed miserably at the 2 things i try the hardest at

WATCH IT!

i just got done watching this movie and its so on my list now...even if its all in french w/english subtitles...i highly recommend it

the more the light shines through me, i pretend to close my eyes

to sumarize today>>>crazy-me and josh spent about 13 hours together-went out to breakfast and dinner, went to the mall, went to 5 points(charlemagne/bailey brothers/mellow mushroom), watched Godsend and amidst it all missed our exit once(thus making josh late for his exam), got totally lost twice(both in downtown bham at night), went the wrong way down a one way street, and ran a red light...great great fun...

wellp

ok there were pictures but josh didn't appreciate the idea so i removed them...if you want to see them that bad i might make an exception and i/m em to ya...though i'm sure most of you are appreciative of my removal.

PICTURES!!!

ok so i think me and josh are officially the least photogenic ppl ever. that doesn't look like us at all...but it is. the pics are also entirely too blurry...probably for the better, haha. he actually looks taller than me in the first one,w00t!on the second one i'm definitely on his back, i'm not THAT much taller than him.

allow me to introduce you

ah sweet Ophelia

hehe, this is my 3d model from a scene from Hamlet...its Ophelia laying dead in the stream after she drowned picking flowers...i thought it looked pretty nifty so i decided to share.

"I hope all will be well. We must be patient: but I
cannot choose but weep, to think they should lay him
i' the cold ground. My brother shall know of it:
and so I thank you for your good counsel. Come, my
coach! Good night, ladies; good night, sweet ladies;
good night, good night. "
Ophelia

and I would be the one, to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away,and after, I'd wipe away the tears,just close your eyes dear

today was awesome! skool went by rather smoothly(surprisingly), i didn't have to do my history oral report, yay! after skool, josh came over and we watched "i, robot" while i made made my hamlet model. then we went to the pageant(paul- you were awesome!). and after that we went and ate at chang's.woohoo!

"You're so beautiful
With an edge and charm
but so careful
When I'm in your arms"
-Sarah Mclachlan

"Porphyria's Lover"-Robert Browning

The rain set early in to-night,
The sullen wind was soon awake,
It tore the elm-tops down for spite,
And did its worst to vex the lake:
I listen'd with heart fit to break.
When glided in Porphyria; straight
She shut the cold out and the storm,
And kneel'd and made the cheerless grate
Blaze up, and all the cottage warm;
Which done, she rose, and from her form
Withdrew the dripping cloak and shawl,
And laid her soil'd gloves by, untied
Her hat and let the damp hair fall,
And, last, she sat down by my side
And call'd me. When no voice replied,
She put my arm about her waist,
And made her smooth white shoulder bare,
And all her yellow hair displaced,
And, stooping, made my cheek lie there,
And spread, o'er all, her yellow hair,
Murmuring how she loved me—she
Too weak, for all her heart's endeavour,
To set its struggling passion free
From pride, and vainer ties dissever,
And give herself to me for ever.
But passion sometimes would prevail,
Nor could to-night's gay feast restrain
A sudden thought of one so pale
For love of her, and all in vain:
So, she was come through wind and rain.
Be sure I look'd up at her eyes
Happy and proud; at last I knew
Porphyria worshipp'd me; surprise
Made my heart swell, and still it grew
While I debated what to do.
That moment she was mine, mine, fair,
Perfectly pure and good: I found
A thing to do, and all her hair
In one long yellow string I wound
Three times her little throat around,
And strangled her. No pain felt she;
I am quite sure she felt no pain.
As a shut bud that holds a bee,
I warily oped her lids: again
Laugh'd the blue eyes without a stain.
And I untighten'd next the tress
About her neck; her cheek once more
Blush'd bright beneath my burning kiss:
I propp'd her head up as before,
Only, this time my shoulder bore
Her head, which droops upon it still:
The smiling rosy little head,
So glad it has its utmost will,
That all it scorn'd at once is fled,
And I, its love, am gain'd instead!
Porphyria's love: she guess'd not how
Her darling one wish would be heard.
And thus we sit together now,
And all night long we have not stirr'd,
And yet God has not said a word!

Is there another side,Beyond the black and white,Place I could meet you by,Place on the other side

wow, what a weekend have i got to look forward to....not. lets see, i have to work on a 5 page history report. then make a 3d model on Hamlet that got dumped on me by my "partner" i seemed to acquire after specifically stating "i'm going solo on this one". tomorrow is play practice from 10-2, thus preventing me from being able to do anything with josh all weekend because thats the only time we'd have to do something together. then sunday is church in the morning, play practice/preparation all afternoon, and then finally the play that night.

Suckers lose themselves in the games they learn to play

allright so i've named today "fight with your object of affection" day. that seemed to be all that went on, schoolwide. at the beginning of 3rd block, two of my best friends(dating) get in a fight at lunch. we get back in the classroom and by the end of the block the "piss off" virus hits me and josh like a freakin brick. as i'm walking to my 4th block class i get behind a slow-walking, arguing couple. and finally in 4th block, there is once again another couple fighting. somethin i did notice though, with all of them it seemed to be the girl appologizing, how ironic.

you do you do you do you do you do you do you do you make me want you

ok so every once in a while i have to break down and do a josh post. he is amazing...as abusive as we seem to be when we're together at skool, it really does tone down a little when we're just out by ourselves(believe it or not)...i have yet to figure out what i've done to deserve him, but either way i'm utterly thankful...i'll stop now...

i came, i drove, i conquered

allright, so just up my driveway theres about a quarter of a mile of dirt road at an inclination of like 85 degrees. over the summer i was coming down that hill in the van and uumm decided to take my foot off the brake completely and ended up in the ditch....hadn't driven back down since then, until today. i made it down without any problems, yay!

all i want for christmas...

a girl can dream now cant she?

Use a smile as a noun and I think like a verb

"To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing. "

-Macbeth-
William Shakespeare

CAUTION!STUDENT DRIVER!!!111!!!(episode 2)

i am sorry to say this will be my last episode, but i have officially finished my driving. i know you may get a little emotional when i am done telling about today's experience(but remember, all good things must come to an end), its definitely not as exciting as yesterday but you'll live, i'm sure. only one other person was driving w/me today; yep you guessed it, me and the stalker. alone. ok there was a teacher too, but still, its more alone than i ever want to get with him. if that wasn't bad enough in itself, he was going to get off the interstate and as he looked back to make sure it was clear to enter the exit ramp, he drifted a little into the lane to the left just as a massive 18-wheeler whizzed by. as he pulled up to the stop sign at the top of the exit ramp my teacher decided to inform him that if he had pulled further into that lane towards the purple death wagon, we would all be "splattered" across the pavement right now.mmmmm, what a pleasant thought. my turn, i'm going to go ahead and tell you that it got off the a bad start, i didn't do anything wrong though. "i just cant drive under these conditions," i thought to myself as i eased out of the parking lot of Shaw's...not only due to my immense headache, slowly fading voice, and the ability breathe only from one nostril, but also the radio was of course on 104.7, blaring "if heaven ain't alot like dixie" and my trusty educational influence was next to me singing along. i did allright on the actual driving, but dont worry, i ended with a bang. we got to the skool and he asked me to pop the trunk and totally gave me the wrong instructions as to which button it was,and yes, i popped the hood...ha. thank god its over. ::happy dance::

CAUTION!STUDENT DRIVER!!!111!!!(episode 1)

I THOROGHLY LOATHE DRIVING!!!i've already taken driver's ed once(last semester) and passed it, but i am in it yet again because i needed the health credit that was only offered w/driver's ed(thats what i get for changing skools i guess). today i was unexpectedly called to BUMBUMBUM drive. i wasn't supposed to drive til next monday so, of course, i didn't have my glasses. and i got stuck in the car with 2 guys, not including my guy teacher. at the beginning of our adventure i got stuck in the back with this guy that ALWAYS hits on me in class(its disgusting). our first stop was the field house, where my teacher went in and left me alone with that crazy stalker guy in the backseat(aaaahhh),within the first 10 minutes he had already tried to strangle me with his jacket(because i was cold) and tried to put his arm around me. anyways, then it came to be my turn to drive...i find it hard to concentrate on the road when the country music is blaring(enough to give me an effin aneurism alone) and my teacher is tapping and singin to it! the worst though was the road work i had to go through...gosh, i got stuck behind a van in our little line of cars we had going around the stupid road working stuff, and they kept hitting the brakes and letting off and hitting the brakes and letting off, i was keeping my distance though; one time he jus pure slammed on the brakes but i had it under control and my teacher like freaked out. he was all ::BIG GASP ACCOMPANIED BY FUNNY HAND MOTION::...which at that point i wanted to scream "YOU GOT A FREAKIN BRAKE OF YOUR OWN RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU, IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MINE-USE YOURS!!!". we stopped and everything was kool though. no wrecks.hopefully i do not drive tomorrow, but i know my other day will come...soon.

i wasn't prepared for this

allright, lets get down to business

yesterday-was pretty awesome, went w/josh and paul to barnes & noble to get that lame book for anatomy. then me and josh went to gallyans, ross, and chik fil a;totally fun(even though i came home and got a huge lecture basically on how my grades are never high enough, how selfish i am, and my moms total judgement upon josh due to his religion, but hey it was worth it).

today-1st block we get assigned a massive gay project. 2nd block requires a post of its own.3rd block-josh wasn't there even though he said he was going to be...called him after skool only to find out he like cut all his hair off(even though everyone, including me and his parents begged him not to), gay...4th-worked the whole time...