need this for my presentation at skool...will delete soon, dont worry 

she just found out about the guy that crapped himself in laser tag that was then bowling on lane 1....yea, poop

ok so maybe we were dancing...

w00t!

aawwee!

maranda, ryan, emily

Walking forwards in the sun,And I've got a cold tale left to write

been back about 5 hours...2 ppl pissed off (at me) and counting. new record, maybe? anyways, the trip was pretty fun, got to see some ppl i havent seen in about 7 months-entirely too long. had a great flea market adventure(found a really old sonny and cher record that my mom's goin to make into a purse). went to a basketball game, of course one of my former stalkers(whom one of my friends convinced i had movied to alaska) showed up, i dont think he noticed me though-thank god. introduced eternal sunshine of the spotless mind to a few ppl. ended it w/some bowling. fun fun fun i spose i'll post some pics

And honey, when you walk my way
It makes me wanna say...
Ohhh

Sha-la-la-lo, sha-la-la-lo
Sha-la-la-lo, sha-la-la-lo 

Let me crawl into your lap and just lay here for awhile,Satisfied by your seduction

well it looks like i'll be spending my weekend in north carolina.seeing as, i cant spend weekends w/josh since he's grounded from life and 2 out of the 4 friends i had while living up there have been begging me to visit since i left. i have this odd sense of dread w/a little bit of anticipation. dread because, well i would still be living up there now if i liked it and i'm not living up there so...yea. anticipation cause i havent seen my friends since august and a break from all the stuff thats goin on down here will hopefully be nice. i dont exactly know what to expect. changing subjects, today i wrote my first poem since this summer.w00t

but it's calm, under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion

sorry about the lack of posts lately, but last week was hell and i just dont like talking about the depressing issues in my life over the internet, to be read by the world. so i'll stick to the good things. as you probably know, i was out of school friday and today which was awesome and much needed. friday- i layed on the couch ALL DAY in a somewhat comotose state, due to sinus related illness. but thanks to lots of sleep and clariton d, by saturday i was up for a little shopping. i ended up getting myself a pair of jeans and my friend that lives in north carolina an awesome element shirt for his birthday(which was the 13th...oops, though i'm hoping to deliver it to him in person this weekend, no promises though...). yesterday i went to church and signed up to take the ACT on April 9th at Victory Christian School(if anyone would like to join me). Today, me and a few friends went up to Jacksonville to go PROM DRESS SHOPPING, w00t! 2 out of 3 of us bought dresses(including myself), so i'd say we did pretty good. i didn't know dress shopping was so incredibly lame...i mean really...when you have no cleavage,little bit of hips, and really long legs...o please, theres no hope.so after trying on quite a few, i finally found this dress that looked pretty good and would fit decently if we crossed the straps,took a little up on the straps, took a little up on the sides, and TAPED it to me(yes the woman went and got her double sided tape and taped the dress to me to show that would fit better), not to mention the beads were falling off-which was why it was on sale. i am quite the bargain shopper, so i decided to get it seeing as it looked allright(better than any other i'd tried on the past 2 hours) and was a very good price. as my friends mom was holding it for me while i put my shoes on so i could go pay, they were bringing in a new shipment of dresses. when the girl brought in the 2nd dress i commented on how pretty it was(it fit my criteria perfectly-pink, strapless, flare out but not exactly "poofy", maybe a little bit of beads...), at which she looked at it and said "well its a 2. here, try it on"...i already have a dress, so what have i got to lose ya know?... i tried it on and it fit PERFECTLY(no hems, no beads to sew back on, no tape....). after seeing it, everyone else agreed i should get it. haha, it hadn't even been on the rack long enough for them to price it before i decided i wanted to buy it. i would post a pic but the only one i can find is of a tan girl, w/dark hair, wearing the blue version of mine( i couldn't look more opposite...pale, blonde hair, pink dress). the pic doesn't do my dress justice either. as me and my friend waited for the ppl at wally world to put a new tire on her car this afternoon, i found these awesome sparkly sandle-type shoes that LIGHT UP(like little kid tennis shoes) that i'm seriously thinking about getting. my dress is so long you cant see my shoes anyways. if those dont work out, i think i'll get some ballet shoes cause i like the way they look and i definitely dont need and height compared to josh. i think i'm done for now.i'm actually proud of myself for accomplishing so much, i havent felt this good in a while. hope everyone elses weekend was as enjoyable and productive as mine!

how i feel...

"Days and Days"

Tegan & Sara

it must be something in the way you move
it must be something in the way you look
I'm not sure just yet

must be something in the way you dream
you just go home and the thirteen days
inbetween you and I

this is me before I come undone
this is me before I fall apart
I've been tired for days and days
I've been tired for days and days

it must be something in the way you move
innocent like you gave in just
like you always would

it must be something in the way they say
and the magic that you bring in
between all you imply

this is me before I come undone
this is me before I fall apart
I've been tired for days and days
I've been tired for days and days

it could have been a month or
it could have been a year but I
I gave up long before
long before you cared
her art inspired me to
to do my best and
to paint my music like
like I saw it best and
she says I grew up well
well, well I grew up strong
cause no one's got my back
no one's gonna write me my songs

pretty 

'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

the following 2 movies have had a major impact on my outlook on things...such as-life, love, and sand...enjoy!

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

"Valentine's Day is a holiday invented by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap."

"Sand is overrated. It's just tiny, little rocks. "

"I could die right now, Clem. I'm just... happy. I've never felt that before. I'm just exactly where I want to be."

"Adults are like a combination of sadness and phobias."

"How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! / The world forgetting, by the world forgot / Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! / Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd."

Garden State

"Of course you're all right. You're alive. "

"This is your one opportunity to do something that no one has ever done before and that no one will copy throughout human existence. And if nothing else, you will be remembered as the one guy who ever did this. This one thing."

"Safe... when I'm with you I feel so safe... like I'm home."

"Fuck, this hurts so much.
-I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got. "

"We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but, for for the first time let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is that we are."

"You make me wanna be somebody you would leave...and I could forget"-Graham Colton Band

ARROZ!

last night i had a plate of rice for dinner. for the first time in my life. i figure at this point in time i'm at one of, if not the lowest point in my life; a little food allergy experiment wouldn't phase me. when i was a baby i had to be taken off of all that rice stuff ya know they start you out with cause i was allergic to it. the doctors say i should grow out of it though. my last experience with it was in the 2nd grade when i had been unknowingly eating a certain cereal made of colored/flavored rice every morning until the mysterious rash of doom appeared on my face not too long after. its been over 24 hours and still no sign of the mysterious rash of doom.w00t

why are "we" limited to being nothing more than an endless stream of (literally)depressing, more than unfortunate events? is it really necessary that we be put through so much pain because we find happiness in eachother?

click on it and you can see jus how close grandpa came to losing his teeth...

www.treeclimbing.com

ok so we found this pic online saturday night and our goal was to have half as much fun as this guy appeared to be having...ah yes, and i cant believe i forgot to tell about carrie and her tree adventure! well carrie is the local accordian player...she's obsessed w/that thing...seriously, she played at my dads wedding reception dinner;she even brought it to one of their bike marathons and ran next to my dad and ana and other random ppl playing it as they peddled by...she can play ANYTHING you can hum to her too, its amazing! therefore, its no surprise that she brought it along to serenade us as we climbed...before it had even started she went to the neighbors fence and played for their emu(it seemed to like it when she was playing for us because it was kind of eagerly pacing...but when she got near it while playin, it kinda backed into the corner). anyways, after she climbed about 200 ft and comfortably positioned herself on a branch, her trusty accordian was hoisted up to her and she put on a rather moving 30 minute performance! it was pretty awesome...

well i had quite an adventure today! i spent the night at my dad's last night and got up early this morning to go Tree Climbing in Atlanta. i know i know "WTF?!?!", right? no too long ago, a friend of my dads made a documentary on these tree climbers and i assume thats house this trip was formed. we met up w/a few ppl this morning and headed over to the peach...we arrived at about 12 their time, tree climbing doesn't open until 2 so we put in reservations at The Flying Biscuit-quite an interesting restaurant...it was like an hour wait to get in, but the food was good! the part of town we were in reminded me of southside alot. while waiting to get in to lunch, i went in this AWESOME VINTAGE SHOP and a REALLY KOOL RECORD STORE, it was great fun! the tree climbing place was like 2 blocks away from the flying biscuit and right in the middle of this ghetto type naighborhood. of my siblings, i was the only one that climbed. we had a very diverse group of about 12...amongst us was a doctor from germany, a doctor from the netherlands, the documentary guy, a psychology teacher, a plumber(yea, my dad...he's not a petite flower either...) and a few other characters. i was the youngest. i cant even begin to describe how you actually climb up there...cause you really climb a rope hanging from a random branch in a massive tree using mostly your legs and a system of knots. there were like 8 ropes available for climbing, all at different heights. mine was about 200ft high. i made it to the top of mine and looked over to see one of the funniest sights so far this year...all 200(+)lbs of matthew p.(p is for "plumber"...actually his middle initial is "p" and sadly it does not stand for plumber" newport suspended from a tree branch, dangling 200 ft off the ground. hehehe. yes it was quite in adventure indeed. i'm already starting to feel sore. i think we're going to do it again too...dont know when though. i'll post some pics when i get some and theres a website for it too...but i'm tired so, off to bed i go...

and all our sins come back to haunt us in the end,to hang around and tap us on the shoulder

i appologize for having nothing interesting at all to post about...nothing that can be posted on the internet for all the world to see has happened...anyways,the oddest thing happened to me today-i found myself HATING the fact that it was friday,because there are 2 whole days before i can go back to school;right now i am actually anticipating monday (more than anything),because i get to go to school...(i'm hoping by now you've figured out its not because i'm eager to learn)...absense makes the heart grow broken...i have a new saying "good lives are gold", its from an awesome Eve6 song ("good lives", if anything-read the lyrics...but its also a grand listen)...

wasting faster than the hourglass, it's slow but i'm not ready, not okay, don't make this harder than it already had to be. call me. i'll answer.